I attended a meeting not long ago and heard a speaker say, as the general premise of the talk, that she had figured out how to get God to heal anyone, anytime. She wasn’t talking about coercing God or artfully manipulating Him to do whatever we would want Him to do, especially in the area of healing. She wasn’t that dumb. Rather, her main point was that everything we need to know about healing, and getting people healed, is in God’s Word – the Bible. All we needed to do was pray a certain way, believe a certain way, and He’d come through. He would have to, you see, because He “had promised us He would heal anyone who believed, and would respond favorably to anyone who prayed in faith.”
But she doesn’t know what to do, think or say when “God” doesn’t heal someone, other than to just keep praying. (That is, until death ends the process, of course.) Others who believe in healing today, and have the formulas that “work,” will explain that when a person isn’t healed someone is at fault – either the person praying or the person that is sick. What they are unintentionally or intentionally saying, depending on the person, is that they’ve got God figured out. They know how He operates. He’s totally predictable … that He responds a certain way in a certain situation every time that situation occurs.
Well … that’s what people say who have either (a) never read the Bible, (b) have read only the “interesting” parts of the Bible, (c) [ the most likely option] have approached reading the Bible with a certain pre-judgment (or prejudice, if you will). Oh, and there is an option (d) and it is: people have heard and then bought into teaching from teachers who live option “c” – teachers who themselves bought into the teaching of someone … who bought into the teaching of someone … etc., etc.
Their God is only as big as their understanding of Him … and that tends to be SMALL.
Let me tell you about my God.
He’s smarter than me. I’m limited in my understanding of Him. I can’t figure Him out … BUT … it doesn’t bother me. In fact, I like it. (If I could figure Him out I might think He is weak, or lacking intelligence … way too small to be worshipped as the great “I AM.”)
God tells me a lot about Himself … but again, more than I can fully understand … and He keeps me curious. I want to know more about Him.
Put another way, His BIGNESS makes Him God … and for me, I like that. I want a BIG God. I want a God that can do infinitely more than I can, so much so that I wouldn’t want His job because I couldn’t do His job. (I certainly don’t think I’m up for it. I believe the position of GOD is filled.)
God’s Word, while totally true, is complex because it’s from Him – the One who is infinite in wisdom and knowledge. It’s written to me and for me – the one who is finite and not all-knowing. That means that there are parts of the Bible I won’t “get” … and there are parts that no one will get. (If I could get it all, or if anyone else could understand it all … well, we’d have to be God’s equal, right?) That said, there are times when children will get Him better than we do.
I believe God is the consummate, perfect LOVER. He never holds grudges, never lies, alway understands, and is totally accepting … but … He’s not stupid. He loves with His eyes wide open. We can’t fool Him. There’s not a place dark enough that we can hide our true feelings toward Him from Him.
Because God loves me He wants me to know Him better and better, and because He loves me He will reveal more and more about Himself to me in language I can understand. (But that still means I won’t ever FULLY understand Him, or His ways.)
I believe God is beyond generous. Because He’s so giving He always wills and wants to give me what is good for me; He said so. He will not withhold good things from me. At the same time, He WILL withhold what is NOT good for me. He said so – He said don’t even ask for those things because He’s not listening. Therefore,I should never try to lay a guilt trip on Him. As hard as we might try, we can’t make Him feel guilty for not answering our every prayer in the way we dictate it to Him. I also believe you and I can’t come up with formulas that make Him do anything He doesn’t want to do … even if we beg … or fast … or cut ourselves … or make promises concerning what we will do for Him in the future. I can never force Him to do anything. He is the greater, I am the lesser. So if I think or believe something … ANYTHING … that doesn’t mean He has to believe it, too.
I believe God is HOLY. That means He can never sin, just as light and darkness can’t mix. He can’t sin against me, or against anyone in the whole world. So … if anything bad happens to me – my stocks tank, I’m shipwreck, I am stoned (and I’m not talking about “pot” here), all my goods confiscated, I get really sick, or even die … it’s not His “fault.” He is perfect. Pure. Right every time. Good every time. Kind every time. Because He knows everything and I don’t, He knows when it’s time to pull the plug – my days are numbered … BY HIM. You can’t sing, “He’s Got The Whole World In His Hands” and believe otherwise.
I believe God is more concerned about me – the real, down-deep-inside-me me – than my comfort. That means things I may not like could be good. Just because I’m uncomfortable doesn’t mean something is wrong, or bad. God can’t be bad. My circumstances could be, but He is never or could ever be bad. That also means that something bad happening in my life might ultimately bring about something good … something unanticipated.
God is tough. He is the same God – in the Old Testament and the New Testament. He didn’t come to His senses in the New Testament. Jesus doesn’t represent “His good side” while Jehovah represents “His bad side.” He does not have a split personality. He is not a child killer in the Old Testament and a child resurrector in the New. He is Job’s God. He’s is Peter and John’s, too. He hasn’t changed. Everything He did in the Old and New Testament, whether we understand it or agree with it, was good because He is good. In other words, He had His reasons for whatever He did … and He was HOLY while He did what He did. Got it?
I believe God healed people in the Old and New Testaments … and He DIDN’T heal people in the Old and New Testaments – for His own reasons. Again, some of those reasons He has never explained. Some He has. That said … even if I’m not healed, not protected, not always safe, not wealthy, not comfortable, not IN on His plan or plans … I try not to care. It’s hard, but I’m better at it today than yesterday. Because I trust Him. I trust His judgment.
I trust Him. And I love Him. I can’t wrap my arms or my mind around Him, but I love Him – passionately. During some tender moments He and I share it’s all I can do not to cry – I’m so filled with emotion. I go ahead and cry eventually. And He likes it, and thinks it’s masculine.
So … that’s my God – my best attempt today to put what I believe about him down on paper, or in a blog post. I don’t want to live without Him just because I don’t understand all of His ways. I want Him, even if He keeps me wondering. He is wonder-filled and wonderful.
Oh, and I do pray! I do ask. I ask BIG. I have great faith. I’ve seen miracles. Real, honest to goodness miracles. And when He doesn’t answer in the way I pray I just keep praying – with an open mind and an open heart.
He is God. I am not. And that is a good thing.